Salam Aidilfitri 1431H

Selamat Hari Raya / Salam Eid my muslim friends~

Salam Ramadhan~

Assalammualaikum everyone...

Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan & Menunaikan Ibadah Puasa to all my Muslim friends out there :)

I just got back to Glasgow yesterday morning. I don't think I'll get tired of crying and being sad and moppy everytime I leave home. My summer holiday in Brunei this year has been very worthwhile. I spent most of it with my family, which makes it hard to leave everything behind.

I miss helping mom to cook and clean, helping bros to prepare for sahur, i miss sleeping with mom next to me, i miss having sungkai out @ the restaurant with my family, i miss having sahur with my family, i miss going out with my brothers...i miss home :(

Apart from spending time at home, I managed to spend my hols with my nanah and kids. All those time playing with the kids, watching korean drama and indonesian drama with nanah and hannan, sleeping over with the kids by my side, cooking baking with nanah, helping her out for sungkai, fetching the kids from school...I miss nanah and kids :'(

I miss my cousin Khal...we used to go out at least once a week. If its not watching movies, we would go out have dinner, sushi-ing, jalan2 shopping / going to the saloon. I miss baking with her, sleeping over at her place has always been in my top list and im glad i made it this time. If u're reading this babe, thanks for spending time with me :')

I miss home...:'(

Btw, have i told you that I'm back home already? :D

Yes, I am home :D and I feel LOVED ♥

30.06 - 01.07

This time last year I lost a very special friend :'(

But this year, I refuse to be sad and I ain't gonna manja myself by going all teary about it. I refused to be that girl anymore. Because I might have lost that special friend, but I gained few good friends over the year. They might not be as special, but they're good friends. Well, at least good to and for me. I am blessed and I will be grateful. I AM grateful.

Thank you Allah :)

14.06.2010

الْحَمْدُللّهِ

=)

S' Wonderful S' Marvellous

I'm tired :(


I wanna go home :(


I've been watching an old drama series Gilmore Girls lately to past my free times and ada one of this episode, Lorelai the cool hot mom - she loves watching oldies film, one of which is called Funny Faces by Audrey Hepburn. Kali I decided to check out that film andddd...turned out it was indeed one of Audrey's best film! Ada one of the soundtrack I really really like...

Lawaa oh...*sigh~*

I'm tired. Haven't slept all day! And then went shopping lagi bali barang orang brunei :S Ngalih :( Kalau dulu bisai, nada org mengurut di Glasgow, paksa tah minta pihit saja oleh 2 big dudes / paling inda pun si Mas yang ngurut lol..At least ada wah kekeke.

I wanna go home :(

Mudah-mudahan result okay.. Amin~~~~~

The wonders of e-shopping

Going home soon... So as expected, lotsa people asked me to buy them stuffs to bring back home. Of all the stuffs that I've shopped for, toys are the most difficult ones. Funny right? I mean who would have thought choosing the best Iron Man 2 action figures can be tough? And who would have thought that the sizes of those action figures matter? Whether it has got gadgets or not or if the it's a comic or a movie series action figures...and other stuffs to consider! Stress ku tarus jadinya. Seriously, I have lost the inner child in me :S

For the past few days and last week, I have been exhausting my bank account with toys, dresses, shoes, bags, scarfs and more toys. I can't believe it, I even bought myself a toy! Well not really a toy lah, more like a board game that Sab introduced me to during our trip to Sheffield.

Also bought myself a guitar tuner! Finally! So next time I don't have to ask Azmi / Jim to tune my guitar for me lol. Kasian wahh, I only get to tune my guitar if I'm playing with them...tsk tsk tsk. Thanks guys for all your "hardwork" from now on I will no longer require your services lol.

Only these 2 have arrived 5 more to come...I think. But they are all the kids' toys..boohoo. One Baby Alive Doll (apparently there's this smartypant doll that you can feed which poops after you feed it - actual poop!), 2 iron man action figures (because I can't decide on the sizes) and 2 ben 10 action figures. Apakah usulnya toys dorang ani...

I'm hungry...:( and bored. But especially hungry..Haven't eaten anything yet. Maybe i should make pasta tonight..

Hmmm..

My Everyday-is-a-Sunday Activities

Hey all~ I'm in my "blog-feel" mood. Came to update on few things that I've been doing during my summer break. Let's start with the recent ones..

Yesterday - went out with Edah and Kikie to hantar Juddin at the central station who's off to London and then Brunei. After that, we, well more like me, while the other 2 tagged along to accompany me shopping - and I finally bought a new duvet cover!!! It's about time for me to get a new one because I never did get one for my new bed in my new flat :D Then we all went for late brunch / early dinner (for some) at our new halal-lised KFC...Surprise! (Yes, we finally get our own halal KFC in the city :P) After that, me and Kikie went to watch Tooth Fairy. It was an alright movie, simple but entertaining. That was pretty much my Monday.

Over the weekends, I shopped a lot, hang out with the Dalcross peeps plus Juddin and stayed over at Wany's. It was really really an awesome weekend. Crazy fun.

Saturday - went out with Wany, Kikie, Juddin to shop for Tie Rack scarfs and other stuffs for the Bruneian families; me and Wany bought Zara dresses; Kikie treating us Easy-way drinks and then went to watch a movie called 4.3.2.1, a British movie telling stories of 4 girlfriends over 3 days, happening in 2 cities (I highly recommend you watch it, it's good!). After movie, went over to Kikie's place where we made a really special Maggi curry! (Yes THE instant maggi curry!) Special because we add in some beansprouts, eggs, sliced cucumbers and a hint of chilli sauce...aaaah~ just talking about it makes my mouth waters. Believe me, me Wany and Juddin made a really good special maggi curry lol.

Sunday - went out again to the city to watch Sex and the City 2 with Wany, Azmi Seit, Edah Saifol (yes, he's back!). Sunday was actually supposed to be a celebratory day for the EEE seniors who are graduating soon in July...but plan backfired as only Wany and Azmi were there. Then...we went for dinner at Wagamama (Japanese restaurant that don't serve sushi), which was an utter disappointment for me and also for few of us. Nyaman lagi maggi curry special kami buat ah lol. Back at Azmi's place, I joined the group, Wany made us Tiramisu, I made Teh Tarik and helped the boys fry some Lekur (YESSSS, apparently they got frozen Lekur!!!) and I watched Wany and the boys played PS2 warfare game till 7.30am! Who would have thought watching them playing warfare games can be so entertaining lol. I was totally knackered to walk all the way back home, so I slept over at Wany's again.

Okay...what else. Banarnya kan, macam boring wah orang kan membaca my daily activities ani.. I don't know why I even bother. I tink i'm just gonna end it here coz' my head is pounding, i need sleep. pronto. Tata~

Prayers for ichat ♥

2 days ago, I found out that my lil' precious cousin Izzat had fractured his skull after he fell from a shopping cart trolley. The accident actually took place last Thursday and nanah told me that he has been complaining about his head being soft and spongy ever since. It was only last Monday that nanah actually realised that he was being serious. Can you believe that???

So nanah brought him to the hospital right away. He was X-Ray-ed and they found a long fracture running along the side of his skull (checkout the pix). Kasian ah!! The neurosurgeon took over the case and reassured my aunt that it was nothing serious, asked her to come back if Izzat started to feel dizzy and vomit over the next few days and that the fracture will heal well over a month. Alhamdullillah..

Seriously, when I first found out, I was having palpitations and anxious about this. At that time, I really wanted to go home. If I own a private plane, I would definitely fly that exact moment. But I had a long chat with nanah and webcam-ed with izzat, he looked fine, active and healthy. Good thing is that he doesn't have to have surgery or be admitted or anything, so their travelling plan to KK is still in order. In fact, nanah and the gang are in KK now. I heard Izzat has been vomitting again after the flight...i'm worried. So to you out there who's reading this, please sedekahkan yaasin and prayers so my Izzat will get better. We all hope that nothing serious will happen..Amin~

Dad's 56th ♥

It was dad's birthday yesterday! Actually, I kinda sorta almost forgotten about it. I was aware few days before the day itself that my dad's bday was coming up soon, then only when I was chatting with mom, I realised yesterday was the birthday! But listen to this, the night before his birthday right, it was midnight and I was busy surfing and what not, then out of the blue, I suddenly feel I wanted to talk to my dad. So i texted him, told him I missed him and do some daughter daddy bonding. Tau2 it was my dad's bday the next day!

So, I managed to curi some of the pictures that shaz took. Mom shaz abang and I have bought dad his own personal PC! And according to mum, he was pleasantly surprised to find out the box of PC waiting for him at home! Wish i was there to see the look on dad's face...:(

56th and 2nd birthday that I missed

Look at that! Dad actually smiles!!!

My family

My family plus one :)

So I made my daddy something to remind him of me ;P

Love you pa ♥

Just in case...

So you decided to see me out of the blue,

should i let you come over?

i think you're doing fine..

that girl in your arms does she know where you come from?

Almost made me move out of town,

you don't want me to be around, i stayed anyway,

just in case...

finding reasons to hate you more than before

like how you said, you would call

but never at all..got rid off your number that i know by heart...

you left your things at my place,

as if i have all the space,cause you know i dont mind

just come back when you think its time..

i'm all black and white inside,

monotonous from left to right

i decorate my house with things you love

just in case, you show up..

in case you show up.

Yuna, Decorate

Di musim exam...

I don't about you all, but I have this pre-exam rituals that I like to do the night before the exam itself. I get myself new pens and stationaries, and then I use them so they would feel comfy to write on

THE big day! Monday 17th May 2010..

Food ration during the exam battle

I've learnt to love water :) Banarnya membuat air yaasin, so I make myself to drink them. Kali udah lama2 mencari air tia. Now I can't get used to not drinking them at all :D

OSCE day!

The tough part is over.

Now, I have to wait for 3 excruciating weeks to find out if I am ever going to continue with this course. Before, I would have jumped for joy for the taste of freedom...but now, I don't think I can even bother to think about celebrating. My future and dreams to ever become a doctor is on the line, so what do I have to celebrate for?

Truthfully, I am scared. Like really really scared. My confidence level has dropped. I used to believe that I can pull through just about anything whatever the obstacles are that I have to face.

Whatever it is i am feeling right now, I still have faith, tawakkal kepada Allah. I've worked, berusaha as much as I could and the rest I placed my faith to you dear God, Allah.

:')

The 14 hours

Guess what? Yesterday kan, I was like studying for 14 hours straight! From 9pm - 13pm! (I know, I have weird studying timing) This is like an achievement! Well, I used to study like this back when I was doing O and A level, and u think uni makes you even more rajin, BIG FAT NO! It makes me sloppy and lazy and believe it or not, I've lost my studying mojo :(

Well, at least I thought so until last night...I knew it's still there inside me somewhere

*flips hair* ;)

Mamaku punya day

Yeap! I've finally succumbed to the temptation (referring t0 FB here)...Found these few tagged pixxies from Shaz's. I love seeing my family pictures, looking at what they have been up to and what's new, hot and sizzlings and all lol. Apparently, my bros and Shaz went to treat mama for a good jolly mother's day! Aku jeles :( and aku mo ikut juaa :'(

Lop u ma ♥

I'm glad Shaz uploaded and tagged the pictures because at least there's always something for me to gaze at when I'm in my dreamy-wawa-gaga-land while i'm having my "revision break" :P

I especially love this picture ♥

Because ichat loves me

Just got this tadi while checking my fb (yes, I've finally succumb to the temptation :P) and found 67 notifications (for over a week, which is not that bad). With it, found lotsa tagged pictures by my families. Mom and bros and shaz celebrating mommy's day and pics of ichat tagged by Khal with the sweetest caption ever "..because I know u miss him big time" (Thanks Khal!!!). Made it my wallpaper right after I found that pic..

I miss home :'(

Never should've would've done that...

1 week!

Yes, I managed to go through that whole 3 days not checking my msn/even fbing. And since I was doing so well, I figured why not continue what I've been doing for the whole week! And I DID! Banarnya kan, mcm malas kan masuk msn lagi, because for once after a very long time, I am emotionally in control of myself..and I don't have to think about "anything else" or "anyone else" except to focus on my studies of course *geeky smiley to be inserted here please*. I would've continued till after exam but I fear that my parents or someone would send me an important offline messages.

So, there I was an hour ago, still having doubts about going online., just because I fear that I would receive or see something that I don't really wish / like to see or know or whatever it is that would make go into an emotional turmoil. So..in the end, i did go online aaaaaaand...Darn!!! My instinct couldn't have been anymore right!

Well just so you know, nothing majorly important happened and I might be writing this a lil' more dramatic that I should have, but I really don't like what I am feeling right now..this feeling of uncertainty and worrying about what possibly could be just a nonsense stuff. Paaaaasal.... of one stupid silly offline message from a particular someone who ...let's just say, it's something that I don't like to read..dengan big caps lagi tu and all. Sigh...Drama~

Okay, I will not go online anymore! Period! (Well...for now at least).

Bah eyh, sasak ku. Baik ku membaca.

A bundle of nerves

It is just a week left now until my exam begins. I am really on pins and needles just waiting and anticipating for the day where I'll be fighting for my future. I am not being dramatic here, it really is the last chance for me to ever fulfill my wishes and dream to be a doctor.

It has been a rough year for me. I don't remember ever feeling like this before, like everything that you've work for before is on the line. Fail, goodbye medicine forever. Nazubillah. I really hope everything goes smoothly.

Histories have tought me to become more prepared - academically, physically, spiritually and mentally for what will about to happen when result is out. No matter what the ending is gonna be, I'll pray that Allah will always be here by my side.

I am anxious, nervous and quacking in my boots just thinking about it all.

To mom and dad, I do hope that I will make you proud regardless of what the outcome would be. Thanks for picking me up when I was down and for constantly never-endingly supporting me.

Thanks ma for being the light of my life.


Love,

Total eclipse of the heart

Turn around
Every now and then I get a little bit lonely
And you're never coming round
Turn around
Every now and then I get a little bit tired
of listening to the sound of my tears
Turn around
Every now and then I get a little bit nervous
that the best of all the years have gone by
Turn around
Every now and then I get a little bit terrified
and then I see the look in your eyes

Turn around bright eyes
Every now and then I fall apart
Turn around bright eyes
Every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
(all of the time)

I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
(Forever's gonna start tonight)

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart