Sincere or fake?

How can you tell if one is being true to themselves and sincere to you or faking it?

Me think you won't know. Unless you've been with them lama udah and you know how they behave and act around you and other people, which you would have recognised as their personality, and how they treat you, regardless in what situations you're in. But then kan, im sure its not as easy and straightforward as we would like it to be.

I guess, the easiest way and what works for me is to think that all your friend are sincere and baik and to not think badly of anyone. Wouldnt' be better like that? Well, unless they treat you badly, thats a different issue altogether.

Say, if you found out that one of your friend is faking it, how would you feel? What would you do?

Would you feel hurt?
Would you layan that person?
Would you ever treat them the same way again?
Would you be pissed?
Or would you just ignore and just let them be?
Would you see them differently after that?

Gosh...Dulu masa time sekolah menengah / rendah byak nie kes cani2 ah lol. Drama brabis wah hehehe. Childish jua banar.

Owh well...what to do. It's life as it is. Just a random thought, just woke up banarnya and I feel like writing. Waseh, ada ilham lah tu kononnya. Setaie lol

Moral of the story kengkawan, apa2 ani, biar tia ikhlas. Kalau rasa diri inda ikhlas, dun bother. Senang what? No? :)

A Piece of Note for Him

Hawa,

Andai engkau masih remaja… Jadilah anak yang solehah buat kedua ibu bapamu, Andai engkau sudah bersuami… Jadilah isteri yang meringankan beban suamimu, Andai engkau masih ibu… didiklah anakmu sehingga dia tidak gentar memperjuangkan ad-din Allah!

Hawa,

Andai engkau belum berkahwin jangan kau risau jodohmu. Ingatlah Hawa janji Tuhan kita…

“Wanita yang baik adalah untuk lelaki yang baik.”

Jangan dimulakan sebuah pertemuan dengan lelaki yang bukan muhrim kerana aku khuatir dari mata jatuh ke hati, maka lahirnya senyuman maka tercetusnya salam dan sekaligus disususli dengan pertemuan… takut lahirnya nafsu kejahatan yang menguasai diri.

Hawa,

Lelaki yang baik tidak melihat paras rupa. Tidak memilih wanita melalui keseksiannnya, tidak menilai wanita melalui keayuannya, kemanjaannya serta kemampuannya mengoncang iman lelaki.

Tetapi lelaki yang baik akan menilai wanita melalui akhlaknya, peribadinya dan yang penting pegangan agamanya. Lelaki yang baik tidak menginginkan pertemuan dengan wanita yang bukan muhrimnya kerana dia takut memberi kesempatan kepada syaitan untuk mengodanya. Lelaki yang baik tidak mahu bermain cinta kerana dia tahu apa matlamat dalam sebuah pertemuan lelaki dan wanita yakni sebuah perkahwinan.

Oleh itu Hawa,

Jagalah pandanganmu, awasilah auratmu, peliharalah akhlakmu, kuatkan pendirianmu. Andai ditakdirkan tiada cinta daripada Adam untukmu, cukuplah hanya cinta Allah memenuhi dan menyinari kekosongna jiwamu, biarlah hanya cinta daripada kedua ibu bapamu yang memberi hangatan kebahagiaan buat dirimu, cukuplah sekadar cinta adik- beradik serta keluarga yang membahagiakan dirimu.

Hawa,

Cintailah Allah di kala susah dan senang kerana kau akan memperolehi cinta daripada insan yang juga menyintai Allah. Cintailah kedua ibu bapamu kerana kau akan perolehi keredhaan Allah. Cintailah keluargamu kerana kau tak akan jumpa cinta yang bahagia selain dari cinta keluarga. Janganlah sesekali tangan yang mengoncang dunia juga yang mengoncang iman lelaki.

Tolong sampaikan pada si dia…
Tolong beritahu si dia aku ada pesanan buatnya…
Tolong beritahu si dia, cinta agung adalah cintaNya…
Tolong beritahu si dia, cinta manusia bakal membuatnya alpa…

Tolong nasihati sia dia, jangan menyintaiku lebih dari dia menyintai Yang Maha Esa…
Tolong nasihati si dia, jangan mengingatiku lebih dari dia mengingati Yang Maha Kuasa…
Tolong nasihati si dia, jangan mendoakanku lebih dari dia mendoakan ibu bapanya…

Tolong katakan pada si dia, dahulukan Allah kerana di situ ada syurga…
Tolong katakan pada si dia, dahulukan ibu bapanya kerana di telapak itu syurganya…

Tolong ingatkan si dia. Aku terpikat kerana imannya bukan rupa…
Tolong ingatkan si dia. Aku lebih cintakan zuhudnya bukan harta…
Tolong ingatkan si dia aku kasihinya kerana santunnya…

Tolong tegur si dia, bila dia mula mengagungkan cinta manusia…
Tolong tegur si dia, bila dia tenggelam dalam angan-angannya…
Tolong tegur si dia, andai nafsu mengawal fikirannya…

Tolong sedarkan si dia. Aku milik Yang Maha Esa…
Tolong sedarkan si dia. Aku masih milik keluarga…
Tolong sedarkan si dia, tanggungjawabnya besar kepada keluarganya…

Tolong sabarkan si dia, usah ucap cinta di kala cita-cita belum terlaksana…
Tolong sabarkan si dia, andai diri ini enggan dirapati kerana menjaga batasan cinta…
Tolong sabarkan si dia, bila jarak mejadi penyebab bertambah rindunya…

Tolong pesan padanya. Aku tidak mahu menjadi fitnah besar kepadanya...
Tolong pesan padanya. Aku tak mahu menjadi punca kegagalannya…
Tolong pesan padanya aku membiarkan Yang Esa menjaga dirinya…

Tolong khabarkan pada si dia. Aku tidak mahu melekakan dia…
Tolong khabarkan pada si dia. Aku mahu dia berjaya dalam impian dan cita-citanya...
Tolong khabarkan pada si dia, jadilah penyokong dalam kejayaanku…


Tolong sampaikan pada si dia. Aku mendambakan cinta suci yang terjaga...
Tolong sampaikan pada si dia, cinta kerana Allah tidak ternilai harganya…
Tolong sampaikan pada si dia, hubungan ini terjaga selagi dia menjaga hubungan dengan Yang Maha Kuasa…
Tolong sampaikan kepada si dia kerana aku tidak mampu memberitahunya sendiri…

Hanya engkau Ya Allah mengetahui siapa si dia..

Moga pesananku sampai padanya walau aku sendiri tidak mengetahui siapa dan dimana si dia…
Moga dia bagai seekor lebah yang sentiasa memuji keagungan Yang Maha Kuasa memasuki taman larangan dengan sopan santunnya dan bertemu mawar berduri yang terjaga oleh tuannya…


Simpanlah pesanan ku ini sehingga engkau bertemu diriku suatu hari nanti…

Done

Haha, alright. I think this is the layout I want. No matter how many times I change it, it will still be that vintage looking. I guess that's how I like it to be. Plus, making my cuzzie Khal goes all hungry and craving for ice cream kacang merah+strawberry+coffee everytime she goes to my blog is definitely FUN. Heeeee.

Ok so what have i been up to...

Yesterday, i send off Jonathan, Sarah, Chun and Hsien at the airport. The Georgians...as Jon called it. I am so gonna miss them all. I didn't cry until i hugged Sarah because I've grown closer to her through out the years because we were SSM partner in the year 1 and we got the same SSM supervisor in the second year. Anyway, I'm close with all of them regardless. Jon because he's constant teasing and our "playful but harmless" jokes and flirts. Chun because we love to share our ideas on life, love and future. Hsien because he was always my "son" whenever we have play role..haha. Awww..gonna miss them all, but i guess it won't be long until i see them again in London, i hope, even though it is just for a while.

I went to Zaty's Doa Selamat before sending the Georgians off. Turned out I was the only one there, i mean IM friends. Thought the girls would be there too. I discover then that Nad had her own Doa Selamat as well, Nina has pre-Ramadhan tahlil and Syukri has family tahlil for his granddad. Edah had her Doa Selamat as well in KB so yea, it's a bummer not having her around. Even so, it's nice of Zaty to invite me, because I understand that the function was attended by close family saja. Thanks Z8y.

A day before that, Saturday, me and Sarah went to pay our 1st yr SSM patient a visit. It has been a long time since we last visited her, i think it was 2006 raya. "Our" baby, the child who we followed through the nine months of his life in womb has grown so cute and adorable. I feel so proud seeing the boy, as if he's just my own child. Heee, jadi emotional jua krg ne eyh. Anyway, it was great to see the family again. Too bad we didn't get to spend much longer time - I have to fetch mom at her school by 12:30. It's really a bummer not having your own car.

I guess dat's all. Wow, it takes me hours to do this post. Manakan, ia jua chatting, ia jua surfing, ia jua checking mails..lol. Ayt, till then.

Busy days...

I haven't been photoshopping and scrapping for a while. Suddenly, my "so-free" holidays are preoccupied with works, briefings, functions and other commitments.

Saturday (09 Aug)

Afternoon: Contract Signing with MOE

Sunday (10 Aug)

Morning - Afternoon : Hunting / Shopping for stuffs

Monday (11 Aug)

Morning: Pre-departure briefings

Noon: Fetch mom from school

Afternoon: Sending off Nadzir at the airport

Evening: Makan hari 7

Tuesday (12 Aug)

Afternoon: Pre-departure briefing

Wednesday (13 Aug)

Afternoon: Feedback Sessions with Dr.Mas and Dr.Lis @ UBD

Afternoon: Trying out graduation robes

Thursday (14 Aug)

Morning: Pre-departure briefing

Afternoon: Pre-departure briefing

Night: Functions at Granny's house

Friday (15 Aug)

Morning: Hunting and shopping for stuffs

Saturday (16 Aug)

Morning: Pre-departure briefing

Afternoon: Preparing for Graduation dinner

Night: IM Graduation Dinner

Sunday (17 Aug)

Afternoon: BBQ

Wawawa...more busy weeks to come :'(

And So...

The BIG day is coming soon, closer than i can imagine. I was informed by my dearest friends that our scholarships are finally APPROVED! Meaning I'm flying off soon, studying and living in foreign land, for the FIRST time in my life. I have been dreaming about this since I was small, little did I know what it means and implies and how it could impact my life and my future. We were asked to go to MOE tomorrow, to deal with our visas and other scholarship stuffs. Honestly, I haven't got a single clue of what we're gonna do tomorrow. One thing for sure, I am excited to see my friends tomorrow! 

One friend of ours is leaving this July, next are the St.Georges peeps followed by the Soton peeps and then Me and my Glasgow-ian peeps. Time does flies.

If you asked me, I have no idea really on what to prepare. I am not prepared in terms of what stuffs to bring and so on, but I am excited to venture the world out there, so I am mentally prepared in that sense. But I'm not sure about the studies. I know its gonna be SUPER tough this time around but I pray and hope that I'll survive. I just have to make full use of my time there and carry on fighting my way through the medical schools, exams and studies. 

I still can't sleep. Darn. And i thought posting this will make me :(