30.06 - 01.07

This time last year I lost a very special friend :'(

But this year, I refuse to be sad and I ain't gonna manja myself by going all teary about it. I refused to be that girl anymore. Because I might have lost that special friend, but I gained few good friends over the year. They might not be as special, but they're good friends. Well, at least good to and for me. I am blessed and I will be grateful. I AM grateful.

Thank you Allah :)

Di musim exam...

I don't about you all, but I have this pre-exam rituals that I like to do the night before the exam itself. I get myself new pens and stationaries, and then I use them so they would feel comfy to write on

THE big day! Monday 17th May 2010..

Food ration during the exam battle

I've learnt to love water :) Banarnya membuat air yaasin, so I make myself to drink them. Kali udah lama2 mencari air tia. Now I can't get used to not drinking them at all :D

OSCE day!

Pain pain run away, you came back another day~

26th April.

1st May.

1st July.

My love story with ipod

I have this thing with this particular ipod. I like it the first time I lay my eyes on it. It's dark and mysteriously sexy in its own way I can't tell you how. My heart was drawn towards it and it still does. I then finally make my own research about ipod, u know get to know it a lil' bit better, find what i like about it, its qualities and I realised how much I want it so badly. Before 2009, I can only admire from afar, and then in the beginning of the new year last year, I finally bought it, you know, make it as your own friend. Me and this sexy ipod clicked pretty well, I get to play with it, that we are almost inseperable, just like best friend. I love every single time I spend with it. I see and play ipod almost every single day to a point where I lost my own priority. I started to make ipod as my priority.


Towards exam period, my relationship with ipod was beginning to peak. It was as if there was a chemistrical spark between me and my ipod which I can't fully understand it myself, even now, I don't even know how to describe it. Gradually, I realised that...I was in love with this ipod, which I regarded as a best friend. It was the greatest feeling ever. I am in love with my bestfriend, my ipod :D



2 months after, i lost my ipod. And with it, I lost my bestfriend :'(


I don't know how and I most certainly didn't forsee it happening. I tell you, losing your bestfriend is not the greatest feeling ever. It feels like losing member of your family. It hurts. Big time. All what is left with you are just memories.

Late 2009, when I came back to glasgow, I slowly traced my steps back, searching for this ipod. And with God's will, Alhamdullillah, I found it. My prayer has been answered. If you asked me, few months earlier, I wouldn't imagine myself to find this special ipod again. Ever since I lost it, it has never been the same between me and my ipod anymore. My ipod does not love me anymore. We are not even like bestfriend anymore. Or like friend for that matter. It's as if ipod is like a person, who you were closed with, a bestfriend for example, who had lost interest in you after a huge argument (that involves a lot of assumptions, misunderstanding and misconfrontations), that the bestfriend just give up on you, refusing to mend things alright again with you. You know what i mean? Bear in mind, this is just metaphorically speaking. And at that particular time, it feels like you're almost unworthy to be regarded as a friend. Not just to my ipod, but to any other ipod/stuffs you love.


It's 2010 now. I supposed my relationship with ipod has improved, but its not quite there yet. I ocassionally play with it, and I have to admit, I still love ipod, eventhough its not the same anymore. Everytime i spend time with it, it would make my heart wrenched and sad, that me and ipod had lost that close connection we got before. Maybe its just me, but I feel ipod doesn't like me anymore. I'm starting to think the only reason I get to play with my ipod again is because someone else brings me to play with it. If it was up to the ipod itself, I don't think I stand a chance to be able to play with it.

Aku masih sayang ipod ku. But ipod ku inda sayang aku lagi :(


This morning I was reading through my old text messages from my old phone and I found some sweet messages from this, a once, close best of friend of mine who reminds me of ipod. Funny thing right, how can you compare an ipod to a person, but it's a fact. Reading those messages make me want my ipod back even more. I got it back alright, but I don't really necessary get to see and play it as often as I would like to. I ever wonder what's gonna happen to me and my ipod. I mean i lost it before, so tough luck, i supposed at that time we don't have the fate. But then, slowly and gradually, i found myself drawn back to this same ipod. Does that means there's fate for us after all?


Well, i guess I just have to let God decides. I can only pray right? :) and afterall, its just a freaking ipod!!!! :P

Its a BRAND NEW YEAR!!!

Hello peeps~

Its 2009!!! Another brand new year to begin a new start in life. 2008 has been a year of ups and down, a rollercoster journey ride for me.

Beginning of the year 08 was really painful for me. Hectic life as well. Remember me organising the Charity Evening, spending my December holidays, hunting for sponsors all over Brunei, driving all the way to KB, working my ass of days and nites just to make the Charity Evening come to live. It did and it was a wonderful ride indeed.

With Charity Evening over, i had my last semester in IM. Leaving IM was a hard one, who would have guessed the 3 years in IM would bring sooo many sweet memories.

Then, my summer holiday, the remaining of my days in Brunei before i fly off to Glasgow. It was a bittersweet memories. I remember going back and forth to hospital to visit grandma @ SICC, sleeping over at the not so comfy bench outside with my cousin, photoshopping and learning to digital scrap from my mentor cuz Khal, running a blog..it was exhausting but nevertheless memorable and surprisingly fun.

Then i lost my grandpa, whom I love dearly and unconditionally. I would never forget that moment when i lost him.

You would have thought losing someone you love is hard, but it is even harder to leave someone behind for a long time. I vividly remember, giving my last visit to granny who was still in the hospital, it still breaks my heart just to mention it. For the first time in my 23 years of life, I had to leave my family behind in Brunei, so i could continue my studies. Sacrifices they say, and its a hard one for me. I'm grateful to have such a wonderful suportive loving family, they might not be perfect, but they are to me in every way. They made me who I am today.

Setting my first baby steps in a foreign country was a hard one too. Adjusting to the new culture, new weather, new family, new surrounding were all so overwhelming. One could just crash and failed to adapt. How grateful I am to have good friends whom i considered to be my new family now, Edah and Syukri. We believe our group dynamics are the best among the rest because we believe we are just like siblings. Celebrating Raya without parents was among the hardest thing I ever imagined. Thank god to the new tech.

3 months studying in my new Glasgow Uni was not that bad either. Eventhough it was hard to accept changes, but i'm adapting and getting used to it. I met new friends. Learn to be independent. Gain new experiences.

Now here I am, reminiscing the good old days of 2008. It was a bittersweet journey.

A good friend ever told me and i quote "Learn to love the life u live and learn to live the life you love". I learnt now :)