A poetry of cold

Yeap, it's confirmed, i've caught myself a cold. The full blast effect started yesterday and early this morning. Urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :S

Guess what peeps, I found a poetry on catching a cold!!! LOL

Ugh: I’ve Caught a Cold

I’ve caught a cold and I’m so bunged up.
My legs they feel like lead.
My bones ache. My throat is sore.
And there are pains inside my head.
I’ve taken lots of remedies,
In the hope my ills to cure,
But my nose it is illuminated in the brightest of reds
And I no longer look so demure.
I’m having to stay in my room all day,
My family has left me alone.
They claim they can’t take time from work,
So not much sympathy have they shown.
But now I’ve got the house to myself
I can snuggle down and have a nice rest.
I might have a cold, but I think you’ll agree
That with a day in bed I’ve been blessed.

Christine Ramsay

.....let's just say I'm stucked in bed and I have nothing better to google about :P

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Asal Usul Solat

SUBUH: Orang yang pertama mengerjakan sembahyang Subuh ialah Nabi Adam
a.s., iaitu tatkala baginda keluar dari syurga lalu dihantar ke bumi.
Perkara pertama yang di lihatnya ialah kegelapan dan baginda berasa takut
yang amat sangat. Apabila fajar Subuh telah keluar Nabi Adam a.s. pun
bersembahyang dua rakaat. Rakaat pertama:- Bersyukur baginda kerana
terlepas dari kegelapan malam. Rakaat kedua:- Bersyukur baginda kerana
siang telah menjelma.

ZOHOR: Orang yang pertama mengerjakan sembahyang Zohor ialah Nabi Ibrahim
a.s., iaitu tatkala Allah s.w.t. telah memerintahkan padanya agar
menyembelih anaknya Nabi Ismail a.s. Sedang seruan itu datangnya pada waktu
tergelincir matahari, lalu sujudlah Nabi Ibrahim empat rakaat. Rakaat
pertama:- Bersyukur bagi penebusan. Rakaat kedua:- Bersyukur kerana
dibukakan dukacitanya dan juga anaknya. Rakaat ketiga:- Bersyukur dan
bermohon akan keredhaan Allah. Rakaat keempat:- Bersyukur kerana korbannya
digantikan dengan tebusan kibas.

ASAR: Orang yang pertama mengerjakan sembahyang Asar ialah Nabi Yunus a.s.
tatkala baginda dikeluarkan oleh Allah dari perut ikan nun. Ikan nun telah
memuntahkan Nabi Yunus di tepi pantai sedang ketika itu telah masuk waktu
Asar. Maka bersyukurlah Nabi Yunus lalu bersembahyang empat rakaat kerana
baginda telah diselamatkan oleh Allah daripada 4 kegelapan iaitu: Rakaat
pertama:- Kelam dengan kesalahan. Rakaat kedua:- Kelam dengan air laut.
Rakaat ketiga:- Kelam dengan malam. Rakaat keempat:- Kelam dengan perut
ikan Nun.

MAGHRIB: Orang yang pertama mengerjakan sembahyang Maghrib ialah Nabi Isa
a.s., tatkala baginda dikeluarkan oleh Allah dari kejahilan dan kebodohan
kaumnya, sedang waktu itu telah terbenamnya matahari. Bersyukurlah Nabi Isa
lalu bersembahyang tiga rakaat kerana diselamatkan dari kejahilan tersebut,
iaitu: Rakaat pertama:- Untuk menafikan ketuhanan selain daripada Allah
yang Maha Esa. Rakaat kedua:- Untuk menafikan tuduhan dan juga tohmahan ke
atas ibunya Siti Mariam yang telah dituduh melakukan perbuatan sumbang.
Rakaat ketiga:- Untuk meyakinkan kaumnya bahawa Tuhan itu hanya satu iaitu
Allah jua, tiada dua atau tiga.

ISYAK: Orang yang pertama mengerjakan sembahyang Isyak ialah Nabi Musa a.s.
Pada ketika itu Nabi Musa telah tersesat mencari jalan keluar dari negeri
Madyan, sedang dalam dadanya penuh dengan perasaan dukacita. Allah lalu
menghilangkan semua perasaan dukacitanya itu pada waktu Isyak yang akhir.
Lalu sembahyanglah Nabi Musa empat rakaat sebagai tanda bersyukur. Rakaat
pertama:- Dukacita terhadap isterinya. Rakaat kedua:- Dukacita terhadap
saudaranya Nabi Harun. Rakaat ketiga:- Dukacita terhadap Firaun. Rakaat
keempat:- Dukacita terhadap anak Firaun.

Mo damam or not?

Masochism = an act of deriving pleasure from physical pain.

I am not sure if I have this but I certainly do always find it pleasurable when I am in pain. Simple kind of pains like sore neck, sprain ankle, cramp legs but there is one thing i never enjoy - gastritis and food poisoning kind of pain. Pain paling palui nie di dunia. Bek plang ku sakit kepala or tegugur tegelincir dalam long bath nie (yes, many times this has happened :P).

I sensed that I'm gonna catch a cold soon, in the next few days. Liat tia saja. Always when i see other people damam, i am weird in the sense that I want to be damam jua. No, its not because I want to seek attention, I just want to feel the pain their experiencing. Macam nyaman wahhh lol. Awu aku aneh (as Sab would say).

Truthfully, i don't want to get sick at this time. See, just when I don't want to be in pain, I'll usually get it at the most inconvenient times. Exam period, or during travelling or vacations or when I am having a wonderful time. Ngok.

The weather is sooooooo nice outside! It's sunny and breezyy!!!!! I feel like going out jalan2 out in the park. I'm Edahless, boring nada dangan kan jalan2 keluar. I wish ada dangan kan jalan2 :( Going out alone is alright, but I would end up feeling even more lonely like that.

I finished covering one topic and I'm bored. Anyone fancy a walk out in the park? ;)

Inside the mind of that psychopathic girl

I once read a book that tells a tragic story of a pyschopathic girl that (more or less) begins like this...

"One might say I always nag. I admit, sometimes I can be so persistent about many or few things. Most of the time, I did it because I BELIEVE there're strong valid reasons; and half of the time, because I think too much.

...and hence, I apologized.

One might say I make things complicated and big of an issue than it should be. I might or might not be. I admit that I can be fussy, undecisive and intolerable at times that I ended up making other people's lives difficult. But in the end of the day, I have all the good intentions and I just WANT to be happy, just like you want to be happy and just like any other human being wants to be happy.

...and hence, I am sorry if I came out as a nuisance.

One might think I am constantly pressing him/her (them) to treat me like they should be that I ended up appearing as a controlling bitch. I admit, I can be very persistent until I get what I want. But I KNOW, I REALISED and I am AWARE now that I can't force anyone to do anything that they just simply don't wish or want or like to do. I realised I can't ask one to give me more than they can give.

...and thus, I apologized.

One might think I think too much that I ended up creating an issue which doesn't actually exist at all. Perhaps as a result of my oversensitivity over small silly things. I admit, I can be overly sensitive at times, but it doesn't mean I like to create those problems. Yes, perhaps I overanalysed things, I admit that. I only did it because I BELIEVE it is a an issue even if other see it being the slightest small silliest things. Not because I don't want to see one to be happy or not because, I enjoyed arguing. I am a person who simply doesn't like people to hate me and if I can, I would try to make things better. I am afterall, just a girl with many flaws.

...and for that, I am deeply sorry.

There are always reasons why I did the things I did. If one actually know the real reason why, sit down and think about it, its perfectly understandable and reasonable why I acted that way.

Do you wanna know why?

Because ultimately, I am just that girl. A girl who found a friend whom she regarded as her partner in crime, a close friend whom she deeply cares and loves, later on got her heart broken and eversince thereafter, has been searching and seeking for that same friend who used to care for her, treat her indifferently, talk to her undoubtedly and unawkwardly, in the first place, who promised to keep her as friend so he can have her longer. She is simply that girl who is still in love with that same friend.

So to be precise, I would like to apologize for loving you at all my friend".

Ref: PP 01, Vol 05, Issue 09

Sincere or fake?

How can you tell if one is being true to themselves and sincere to you or faking it?

Me think you won't know. Unless you've been with them lama udah and you know how they behave and act around you and other people, which you would have recognised as their personality, and how they treat you, regardless in what situations you're in. But then kan, im sure its not as easy and straightforward as we would like it to be.

I guess, the easiest way and what works for me is to think that all your friend are sincere and baik and to not think badly of anyone. Wouldnt' be better like that? Well, unless they treat you badly, thats a different issue altogether.

Say, if you found out that one of your friend is faking it, how would you feel? What would you do?

Would you feel hurt?
Would you layan that person?
Would you ever treat them the same way again?
Would you be pissed?
Or would you just ignore and just let them be?
Would you see them differently after that?

Gosh...Dulu masa time sekolah menengah / rendah byak nie kes cani2 ah lol. Drama brabis wah hehehe. Childish jua banar.

Owh well...what to do. It's life as it is. Just a random thought, just woke up banarnya and I feel like writing. Waseh, ada ilham lah tu kononnya. Setaie lol

Moral of the story kengkawan, apa2 ani, biar tia ikhlas. Kalau rasa diri inda ikhlas, dun bother. Senang what? No? :)

Auntie Reverse~ Reverse~ LOL

4th April 2010

Today is a memorable day for me and should be highlighted and celebrated for the rest of my life. Aku sasak. Sasak to the point that I develop hatred. Why pissed? Pasal I have discover how I have degraded my soul and dignity and any maruah left in me just to seek and claim for a sincere friendship from this one person.

Picture this, you met a friend whom you really clicked and get along well and shit, you've gone through a lot together as a friend, and you both cared and loved each other. Then suddenly your friendships gets rocky and when you're trying to pick up the pieces balik, trying to mend things right just like old times, but it just doesn't seem to work out like you wanted to.

I believe in that "it takes two to tango for a relationship, be it friendship, to work" stuff. Kalau one is not willing to be friends with you and not ikhlas, how is it going to work? If one is faking it, is that sincere friendship?

But one thing that baffles me. If say kan you both gone through a lot as a friend, sayang each other before, pernah susah senang together, helped each other a lot and do almost everything together, doesn't that count for something at all? Shouldn't it be easier to forgive and forget each other?

For almost a year, i've been trying to make this friendship to work. And never ever I feel hatred or pissed no matter how many times we argue. In fact, its the other way around, aku plang kena sasakkan or kena benci. Minta maaf bisai2 kena ucap kan cari kelai and kena ucap aku saja tah yg bisai nada salah. Salah sikit kena ucap besar-besarkan perkara. Main2 jauh hati or merajuk kena ucap terluan sensitif. Kan explain and make ammends kena ucap kan control org saja, mau org tunduk apa. Regardless of what I'm doing, walaupun my niat is baik, I would be the one who always left feeling the guilt and wrong. Macam nada maruah lagi wah rasaku kan minta maaf balik2 rasa jua kan mau bekawan sama org ikhlas. Salah kah kan expect your once-closed friend atu to treat you just like old times?

Bullshit wah rasanya kena layan cani. Macam sampah wah.

Ani mana saja tah. I couldn't care lagi. Kena marah kah or kena benci kah, i just don't want to care anymore. I'm tired of caring. Inda cukup kah what i've done to be a friend selama ani? From now on, I will permit no one to degrade my dignity just to get a sincere friendship from a person who is just not willing and sincere to be my friend.